I am with a heavy heart…

Standing here at the internet station in Terminal 1, I have 12mins surfing time remaining. Sigh….

I said goodbye to my mom who insisted that she send me off along with Cik Wahid, Cik Anim, Ajin, Cik Pozi, Cik Idah, Cik Ramli, Cik Jo, Adi, Aish, my younger sister, ‘Kikimora’, my Zoolanders friends, Zul ‘Ulat’, Kim ‘Kong’ (who got to meet me at T2, but had to go back early), Manzur ‘Giraffe’, Kak Xana ‘Anaconda’, Abang Yus ‘Scorpio’…….

I love you all.. especially my dearest Mom who hugged me for a good 5mins and cried… saying that she’ll be alone… she’ll be alone… My heart grew heavier by the minute but I can’t help the situation…

I told her to be strong for dad, always think of him when we were having a good time, to have his fond good memories and not the sad ones…

I am amazed at my strength for not crying in front of her…

People might say I’m cold-hearted… but I’m dying inside.

Just stepping foot beyond the immigration line into the Terminal, had my heart just dropped to the floor….

I am now pouring out my feelings here in the Internet station before proceeding to…. Gate C… U… Later…

I am just devastated…. but nobody knows except God HIMSELF…

I got to go…

My husband found someone online whom I grew up with along with my family and have been close to….

To tell him of the sad news of my father’s passing….

I am sure he’s going to be devastated and shocked.

To everyone out there who knows me….

I LOVE YOU ALL TO THE VERY END…

PLEASE HELP ME COMFORT AND CARE FOR MY MOTHER IN HER SAD TIMES.
REMIND HER OF THE FUNNY DAD… NOT THE SAD ONES….

THANK YOU SO MUCH.